Your mind is your nightmare. Well, it is for me at least. I tell myself things everyday, whether that’s good or bad, I never know. We always say that you are your own enemy and I can’t agree with that anymore. You give yourself the most hate, so stop.
I tell you to stand in the mirror and call yourself beautiful, smile and love you for you. I do this every morning, but I still always have such a hard time. I wake up, put some clothes on and look at myself, make sure I match and my outfit looks well.
“You look bad”
“Wow your legs kinda look fat in those shorts”
“Can your hair look any worse”
I then change outfits because I do not look good enough, I restyle my hair because it looks awful and my self esteem just hit the ground. All because I thought and told myself these things.
When I caught myself doing this, I tried so hard to stop. I left the outfit on, left my hair alone and went on with my day. Sure, I got compliments and told that I looked beautiful, but I didn’t feel that way. I felt so insecure because my mind made me feel like I didn’t look good. I walked the halls and went through my day feeling so down and depressed. I didn’t know why I felt like everyone was judging me when it was really just myself. How was I going to stop…… );
I prayed. I asked God to help me with my mind, and my confidence. I wanted to be able to listen to myself and it be positive.
“Hannah you look wonderful”
“This shirt makes my eyes look good today”
“I did my makeup good this morning, yay me”
I felt these things. Slowly I have started to defeat my mind and myself as an enemy. I shut it out and took control. Don’t think that I completely did though, I still battle myself everyday it feels like, but my battles have become easier. I learned to not be so hard on myself, that I am pretty and there is nothing wrong with feeling that way.
A Few Ways to Win:
- Ignore your thoughts and go about your day.
- Talk to someone you trust, tell them how you feel.
- Fight back. When you tell yourself something negative, immediately say something positive back.
- Don’t do what you say. Don’t change the outfit or the hair, go out, smile and have fun. You look great. 💗
You mind is your worst nightmare. You yourself are your worst enemy, but are you brave enough to face yourself and take control?
I have a few exciting things coming up this next week/ two weeks hopefully and I am so excited to share them with y’all. Thank you so much for being so supportive and reading.
XOXO Han 💗